Wednesday, November 7, 2012

That Little Spark.

I feel vastly different.

It's as if a tiny spark has been ignited in me, finally providing me bits of inquisitive insights on how things actually work beyond my world.

I've always felt that there's this huge gap between what goes on my mind and what the rest of the world have on their minds. I still do, but this time I'm finally learning to accept the differences, so to speak. It sounds easy but when put into practice, let's just say there are quite a bit of considerations involved, mostly my own willingness to change how I choose to respond.

Other than that, I've started to learn to accept my own unique self too. I finally see that I too have my own special set of beliefs, traits and passions that I should love and respect, instead of succumbing to the views of the rest of the world who might actually think that those are all special nothings. Again, the temptation to give in is great, but I've managed to go against my usual norm in more than a few occasions so far and I must say, the feeling is indeed very liberating.

Then there are the grey areas, of course, of which if I overstepped some of them too much, it might well be the end of me.

Or not.

This tiny little spark, I hope it continues to light my way in my path of life. While the gradually increasing amount of awareness can be a bit overwhelming and slightly intimidating even, I heartily appreciate everything that I've come to know, understand and accept so far, and I'm looking forward to more.

Thank you, Lord, for Your tireless guidance and especially for Your unrelenting love and patience, which are what I really need. Sorry for straying away for quite some time now.. I don't know when I'll be back but I believe You have always been there for me, guiding me and loving me, and always will be; for that I am deeply grateful to You. Thank You so, so much.